Just a little over a week ago, I nervously walked on stage in front of thousands of people, shook hands with the president of the college, and was ushered into a photo opportunity with my newly received diploma.
I returned to my seat and sat there staring down at this black folder containing my college degree. I thought to myself, now, what?
I didn't have a plan. I felt like everyone else around me had it all together. My sorority sisters all seemed to be heading off to graduate schools, spending their summers doing research or traveling. Me? I had my bags packed to go back home, hoping that I would figure it all out later.
Now, as I sit here in my room, one that I spent many of nights studying for that AP Government class (jokes), I'm faced with the reality that it's all over. The best
four three years of my life went by in a flash, but it's time for me to move on.
I'm so used to having my whole life planned out. I knew what classes I'd be taking next semester, what residence hall I'd be living in, what books I had to read over the summer. Now? It's all up to me to decide, and that's weird. Like, really weird.
If I'm being honest, I'm completely scared about what's next. And, that's okay. It's okay that I don't have a plan. It's okay that I don't have everything figured out. Heck, I'm 21 years old with a world full of opportunities in front of me. While I'm nervous about what the future holds, I know it's going to be okay. It doesn't feel that way right now, but I just know it is.
The best thing for me right now is knowing that God is in control. He has a plan for me (Jeremiah 29:11), and it will happen in His time. I just need to learn to be patient, to keep trying, and to put my complete faith in Him.
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